hard being a single mom

I work 2 jobs to make it as I go though a 2 year devorce. then at the end 6 mo and 6mo . im skipping alot here. sorry.

tulsa

well my husban beat me and our son. cheated on me. but I married for life and I thought this is what marrage was like.. its all I had ever seen.
 then one day my mom was sick so I go home to be with her, missing my husband and baby I return home early to find my husband having sex in my bed with some girl and my 1.5 year old son awake in bed with them.
it was time to leave agine. back home me and baby go.

returning home

my mom was tring in my life, sister 3 was dating my friend Jay, and my friends but one wanted nothing to do with me.
 so I met a guy and thought I was in love with him, and not wanting to go to hell I married him at 17 so I could have sex with him.
 come to find out he was just like my dad.
 had my oldest son at 19  moved away.

treatment

I was scared , going in for an eatting disorder they find pot in my system.  so it  was time to get better. by this time I had strained my hart and had no flapper  to keep the acid down and the eanmale was gone from my teeth.
 but for the first time I felt safe and loved.
 I refused to talk to my mom for about 2 weeks. jay writting me letters letting me know he loved me was nice.
 and then one night I started to have vivid flashs of thing my dad had did to me. why did my mom not stop this?
  any way 34 days later it was time to go home. I did not want to. but I had to. 

16 change one more time

I tell my friend about my life and throwing up to relive stress, he knew already. so he asked me to go to group with him.  so  i did. and I opened up about every thing that day.  that night there was a van at my door and I was off to treatment. that day Jay changed my life, and saved it. I will always love him for what he did for me.

15 and life is about to change

Me always being a kid that just wanted to please every one and always be good in hope someone might love me, changed.
I started smoking pot, my sisters was acting as my mom, and i started throwing up when i ate. when I would eat and then get rid of it for a few min as it was coming up it felt like all the bad things was leaving me. it is how I was dealing with stress.
 I was skipping school, I did not care about anyone.
my mom tells me she is tried of being a mom.

the new town

Life was better then it had been. my oldest sister, lets call her sister 1 had gotten pregnant. the sister that was like my mom , we will call her sister 2. had moved back home, and sister 3 was off getting married.  but now I was dealing with my mom getting sick and not having time for me and my dad never wanting me and my brother living with my dad and I never seen him. he is the one that took the time to teach me to ride a bike. but I was making the best out of what I was handed.